New found peace

I spent most of my weekends trying to get to know myself better. I asked questions like what makes me happy? What makes me depressed? What is my goal? What do I really want to do with my life? etc...

The greatest accomplishment of this weekend is

1. Creating mindmap index of my life. It's a mindmap file that links all the considersations I have. It's a web of mindmaps of my life.

2. Shorter haircut. I look way better when I see myself. I think I look naturally better with very short hair.

3. New found confidence by "Clear Talk". I now believe that projection of my voice is the major reason of my low self esteem. I am going to talk clear and deeper like a real man. Because I'm a real man.

4. Persuit of happiness. I recorded what makes me happy and I found out that I have a tendency to be a perfectionist. I approach new things too strongly but get tired of it too soon. This is because initially I feel like conquering the task I started with but I set unreasonable goals. So I get disappointed and eventually give up. This is a recurring pattern in my behavior. I found I should say when it's "enough"

5. Defined my values. I value clean, organized, focused states. This applies to my environment, work, personal life, hygiene and pretty much everything about my life. I found when I sit up straight, it introduces these states of mind naturally, thus I can make thing more clear, organized, and focused. I also found that patience is what is required the most when it I want to persue long-term happiness. I realized short-term happiness and long-term happiness are sometimes conflicting goals. I found I actually become happier when I persue a choice that leads to long-term happiness

6. Read by computer speech. This makes learning more convinient thus allowing me to stay focused longer. Reading with eyes require more energy than listening. I perfer auditory mode of learning to textual way of learning. However I do prefer visual way of learning. I now feel like I know how I learn the best and most efficient.

7. Realizing how suck I was compare to others in my age. Age of 23 is a time of great start for most of accomplishers. Especially people who found technological companies such as Bill Gages and Steven Jobs. I have realized that in order to be a great accomplisher, I need to do what I truely enjoy doing. In that sense, I need to find out for which rewards I feel the best.

8. Journaling. I decided to write a journal (time of writing "ONLY") after the evening shower. Evening shower is a time of reflection and after that, it's time to speak of my heart. So I think journaling before I sleep would make me feel that I am having an enriched life.

That's it. I have listed 8 parts of my accomplishments over this weekend. Weekend should be time of reflection relaxation and recommitment to my goals. I would call it 3-REs.